According to someone close to me I am having a king sized mid life crisis, You see I turned 45 the other day and in the last month or so I have been pondering the important stuff, The meaning of life. Am I considering a little red sportscar without a roof? Maybe trading in the missus for a younger model?
I have been pondering the meaning of life, trying to work out why I am becoming a boring old fart and only one word comes to mind passion. My life has become generally passionless. I am not talking in a romantic sense her, not flowers and champagne, moonlit strolls in the rain and the movie definition of passion. I am talking about real life passion.
I have been married for almost 19 years, sometimes it feels like 50 but mostly I am happy. My Wife is good to me, I am good to her, We still rock the bed on occassion. Real life is like that, In the movies they rock the bed and they believe the world shudders. That’s crap. Love is not that delicious feeling that teenagers experience when they first meet. Love is not that fleeting fluttering of the heart when you see the person after a few days absence.
Love goes deeper than that. Love is that understanding that there is no one you would rather be with even after the fluttering heart is gone. Love is knowing that you can impossibly go and spend 3 months in another country while your beloved are at home. Love is talking about the issues, making real life decisions and doing it together. My marriage has loads of passion, we fight, we argue, we kiss, we talk, we rock the bed.
The passion that I am missing is in my work. The passion is gone from the part of the day that I spend more time at than any other except sleeping. I realise the other day that the frontiers of the web are no more. The excitement of communicating with people in far off lands is not wonderous anymore, You see I was there at the beginning when IRC was hawt, when the wonder of text communication with someone in Russia, America or even England was overwhelming. I was there when web pages took 5 minutes to display 3 images.
I have spent the last 7 years working for a living, I have been offering a service grudgingly because doing the coding is not fun anymore. Finding the solutions has become humdrum, a yawn. It’s no longer a passion. I need to make some changes.
In the last few years I have experimented, tried a few new things but none of them gave me a flutter. Not even when the newspaper came off of the presses did I get really excited. It was just a job well done. It was just a job. I need passion.
So I sat down and thought about what I want to do, what I wanted to leave behind. I want to make a difference, I want to be remembered as a contributor. My contribution to the web was probably not to meaningless, People made money from sites I created. I know that my skills are valuable, so I am not going to totally waste them. I have already started training Naomi to keep the current clients happy and online, but I am going to do something different. I am going to create passion, I am going to improve the lives of others. I am going to be in the service of my community.
The first task is to raise enough funds to build a house to support Cancer patients. You can read all about my passion at Tip 2 Top. I am going to do the things I am passionate about to make a difference. I am passionate about photography, video and travel. So I am going to use those skills and passions to raise funds for a Cancer home. I am passionate and very concerned about Cancer, My family has a history of losing people to this disease. Oh yes and my varied web skills will make it so much easier for me to publicize my passion and my goal
Yes my mid life crisis is here and its here to stay
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May 27th, 2010 at 8:21 am
Hey we do so rock the world! Like I mean really dude!
May 28th, 2010 at 5:59 pm
A job is so much more worth doing if it’s also your passion. Since I discovered my love for travel there’s been no looking back. It’s interesting how things which were once exciting, when done often enough, become humdrum. Our business, even though it’s only a few years old, is entering a more mature stage. We hired somebody last year to carry out the rote work and are going to hire a second person soon. There’s a certain pleasure in training up and help develop people.
Give it horns!
June 2nd, 2010 at 9:09 am
Hi Guy!
I think various crises visit us when there are a time for us to remain stronger (smarter, happier, richer, …). If we would think about it then would break a lot less of us.
I use kettlebells for staying fit. I do ten presses for example. Which repeat is the hardest? – the tenth, which gives a progress? – the eleventh.
Best regards,
Ugis
p.s. You can count on a support base if your path will enter Latvia.